Day::32

PAIN, DISAPPOINTMENT, AND HEARTBREAK

This is incredible. This applies to my life in several very specific ways.

I have always been fascinated with the deep relationship that Jonathan and David shared. I love how almost immediately after they met, "Jonathan became one in spirit with David, and he loved him as himself" (1 Samuel 18:1). And i love the sacrifice and selflessness these two men demonstrate in their friendship.

I think i've experienced that kind of friendship. The "one in spirit" kind. And right now that relationship is changing in some huge ways. It's not dying, or ending, it's just changing. And i believe it's all in perfect timing, (isn't it always with God?) but that doesn't take away the deep pain.

The book talked about how David was honest and open with God about the pain rather than avoiding it or pretending it wasn't there. I think that is key. And i've been trying to do it in my current situation, but it's kindof a new thing for me. And it's pretty difficult.

Oh God, i need you.