I picked up my Solo book, my journal, and my Bible and prepared to spend an hour alone. It was 12:00 and i had barely finished homework for my next class and now i had one hour, just one hour, to spare before i had to get back to school. Usually i would find some lunch, but today i found a park.
The air seemed thick, almost warm, as i let our front door slam behind me and walked out to get in my car. I was excited about the one-on-One time i was about to spend with Jesus, and i really needed the space from the stress of school. Five minutes later i arrived at the park and made my way to the huge tree sheltering the slides and swing set. I sat down and let my back lean against it's dark brown bark, and my solo book found my lap. As i read about Nehemiah, i tried to let his story speak to mine, but i couldn't find an easy parallel...at first.
Nehemiah probably felt that he had a heavy enough burden already, and then he was given this one for the poor and mistreated people. And sometimes i feel like i have enough to deal with, and then i'm given something else. It's then that i feel overwhelmed. I tried to think of times when i felt like i had plenty of problems, and then was given something else, and a couple recent instances came to mind.
But then i realized a that there is stark contrast to this "too much" feeling i was mulling through. My stomach was empty. I felt like i didn't have enough. And alot of times, even when my stomach is full, i feel like i don't have enough. I don't have enough satisfaction, or attention, or joy. And then i realized, God is everything i need. He doesn't give me too much, and He isn't too little. He is everything. He is the perfect amount.
Then a small warm decided to crawl near my leg and i realized that i had no idea what else could be crawling on me while i sat on the ground, so i moved to the picnic table. I pulled out my markers and began to make a picture describing what i had just learned. I wrote "i have EVERYTHING i need." and decorated it with colors and symbols. Just as i wrote this a little bird started singing a very loud tune right above my head. And then i realized, I have everything i need, and MORE.
My hour was almost up, but before i went home i did one of my favorite things- swinging. The air blew through my hair and my feet dusted the sand as i went higher and higher. I noticed an extra red tree in the distance and i rejoiced in the fact that God is EVERYTHING and MORE.
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